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death?

On June 12, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
Is death everything? Is it the only thing that can make somone really strong inside cry? I wonders with eyes open now. I’ve been hearing this word for quite a number of times this week. It’s not just mere words but it is in this real world. I know you might say, ‘Everyone has to go through it eventually’, but in reality, we are (or perhaps) many of us are so scared of this word death. Whether is it people dying or you yourself dying. It is such a torture to even hear that word death. Although I know where I am eventually going, but I cannot deny that I fear the word death.
An aunty who used to look at me when I was young, buy things for me, carry me through the service is now in a critical condition. She only has 6 months to live. She is having lung cancer. And she herself doesnt know that she only has 6 months. She is now in the hospital i suppose. Although I no longer click to her as much as I was young, but I still do care. I wish there was something I can do. Well, I don’t know. I am so confused
Apart from that, Su May was calling me with an urgent mode in the evening. Asking about Ben/Benny. She was asking if my friend was named Ben. I was like yeah! And she told me that there was this guy claiming to be the little brother of Ben said Ben passed away. My heart sank. The first thing that came to my mind was HIM. I couldnt imagine anything and I was blank for a moment. I didn’t know what to do, who to sms, what to think of, who to call. And she was calming me down saying should be him, shouldnt be him. And to keep the story short, it wasnt him. It was someone else. But it woke me up just a bit. Really. I am still in shocking mode though. =S
Life Is Short. Appreciate What You Have Before it’s Too Late.
Jesus Loves You =)
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a&w

On June 11, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
It’s Wednesday! It’s like I just came back from camp yesterday.
The memories of the fun are still vividly in my memories. =)
We went to Petaling Jaya for the Famous Chicken Rice and later to A&W for some deserts.
We are kinda crazy. Not many went today as assignments are so gonna due in a day or two.
But it was definitly a great time of fellowship and fun time. Random pictures I’ve got. =)
The 2 gay partners with their waffles =P
My delicious waffle i suppose.. =)
I don’t know how this picture fall into my email account. haha
Okay. This is really childish.
Adrian was daring me that if I ever sit down and the thing does not break, he’d join the fun.
We left the rest looking at us. I was standing there under the hot bright sun.

The moment I sat on it: it was burning hot!!! =S This was our simple and fun outing for today.And did I blogged that my lecturers left APIIT. Muahaha.. =P

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dive in!

On June 8, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
ROCK Camp 2008
Let me flood you with pictures! =)
The ice-breaker
The word game..
First Worship Session
Signing the banner for ROCK Concert Night

Getting the clue for the Treasure Hunt throughout the camp!
Thats how we torture them.
Same thing. Modeling for this team.
You think they are hot? Well..
Session time..
Pastor Daniel and his slaves =)
Passing the rubber band..

Confession: I was the emo fella who throws balloon at all the teams who were trying to do their task.. haha
See.. =P
Cheer..
Posers, as you know.. =P
Concert Night
See how tired a camp commander can be? Opps.. it’s First Mate.
Bullying the YD.. Haih..

Water World Talent Time!!!
Pastor Daniel’s imitation!

Pastor Eddie’s imitation.
Gary dating Charis?
Worship..
Okay. I don’t know what we were doing =P


Hug for the Nation Banner..


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Worship Team




Camp Committee / Pirates




Let’s keep diving deeper! =)

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feeling the nostalgia..

On June 8, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
I know I am supposed to fill my blogs with pictures of camp but I just felt that I miss my Secondary School. I have left the little hill located in Bukit Nanas for just less than 7 months. I miss the school. I miss my friends. I miss the people I used to see. The duties I used to do. I miss every part of it. The fact that we are all scattered all over now makes things worst. Those who went overseas, so on and so forth. My life has never been the same without you people. I miss the laughter, the jokes, the fight, the work, the copy-ing (ooppps) and everything that we have done. Looking back at some of the best captured pictures during the last year of my high school, the feeling of friendship sparks. The feeling of teamwork pops up. Things that I am feeling now is beyond words. Every part of it is being missed by me now. I do regret skipping school right before SPM. Things could’ve been better.
Let’s browse through some of the nostalgic photographs.
The School Badge.
The main entrance of the school.
The overall architecture from the front. Still standing tall100th Year logo.
The Johannian Spirit Lives On..5/O- the most notorious and lazy class.











You can see the fun time we’ve had. In the lab, in the class, in the corridor; things are equally fun and easy. It doesn’t look like we’re sitting for SPM at all. Time really flies. I wish I could turn back time. The laughters were so real :)
Certificate for Drama Director 2006
Some of the best pics took in school. :) I wish I could have took more.

The best years of my life- was definitely in St John’s.
No where else I found such joy in learning.
The best of the best years. :)

I can now stand tall because of the school that stands tall.

I am who I am for how much the school has blest me with- not just education but moral values and spiritual growth. It’s more than a school. Or perhaps, it’s more than an ordinary Institution.
I am proud to be a Johannian.
Once a Johannian, Forever a Johannian!
*Green, White and True*

I would be going this Saturday for the band competition.
I hope you people will join me too in Dataran Merdeka.
Without a doubt, St John’s still reign supreme! :)

augh

On June 7, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
CAN SOME PEOPLE REALLY LEARN TO KEEP THEIR PROMISES FOR ONCE?
CAN SOME PEOPLE REALLY LEARN TO CARE AND TAKE INITIATIVE?
I am TIRED and SICK of waiting aimlessly and endlessly. Grrrrr
*I was thinking so much while driving so much when my dad was just shouting at me. =(

stupid high fever

On June 7, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
I am suffering from a high fever. A very ridiculous and terrible one. Have not been having a good sleep last night. Can’t wait till the sun shines again. Thats how much I wanted yesterday to be totally over. I have not been ill for quite some time but this time I am. I don’t know whether if it is the aftermath of the camp or is it the thinking-too-much syndrome that has caused me this illness. I am having a severe headache and worst still throat pain. Being the loud me, I jsut don’t want to lose my voice. I have been drinking endless amount of H2O for your information but the result seems to be annoying. I have been going to the washroom like the last time I was trying to abstain myself from getting germs. I visit the toilet like every 5-10minutes. It is annoying. It isn’t like my room has a toilet. Grrrrr… The pimples in my face are also getting larger and larger and I am too lazy YET to wash it all away. And the itchy bitchy fingers of mine keep peeling it for no reason. And one more amazing thing- I don’t feel like eating anythin! Seriously, i crave for no food apart from maybe Starbucks. Shucks. No remedy of sms-es I got either. Sheesh (Opps, talk to Max too much. I noticed after typing it. Naturally. Ish)
I am trying my best to just look forward and look at things positively but well, the usuals come along. But at least it is slightly better now I suppose. I am starting to be ignorant to many things lately. Maybe I shouldnt but certain things are worth ignoring. Trust me! I am sleepy. I need my nap. I wish of many things right now. But it seems that many will NOT come through.
But one thing- I can’t wait for my big day to come this year!!
And to the special someone, no matter how busy you are, I’ll still be here =)

is it gonna over tonight?

On June 6, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
I wonder and ponder is everything gonna be alright if tonight is over? I am still thinking and asking myself, some people don’t deserve your care but well, it seems that not many people read the post here anyways, which includes this person. I am just letting out my frustration and disappointments. I am waiting for an SMS. I wish it could make my day brighter at least. One and the half hour and this day is over! I don’t care wherever you are but I kow you don’t care. Have all the fun you want today. I know you’ve had it all and not even bothering if I am getting sick and all. What is with the SMS saying that you were worried, glad that I replied, when am I coming back from camp? All nonsense I suppose. With just a few short replies, you just went to bed and tell me to take care. What a selfish act. Do you really care? Are you really worried? Let’s just ponder. What have you done to show you are worried? By going to bed yourself? Aughhhh
Was in Mid Valley today. The aimless me, Edmund, Tun Ching and Justine had Kenny Rogers while the rest- Chern-I, Dodol, KP, Weng Yew, Ivan and Jian Hong were at a Japanese restaurant. We had Starbucks to get my dosage after that while we TRIED to discuss our OSE Group Assignment. TRIED- look at the word! Dark Mocha Frap isn’t as good as the old Dulce something something. Was emoing in Starbucks a while too. Was also SMS-ing Max some part of the day to let my anger and emos out. Am sorry though!
I wanna blog about Justine. She’s tomboyish acts can make me laugh the whole day. While Tun Ching tries to burst the balloons in the car while I was the victim of all the bursting. I don’t know why but I suppose I better get thsoe camp balloons out of my bag. Justine is just amazing. Her laughs is contagious. My sleepyness and emos are contages too. We are bad people. Giving and spreading nonsense in college. I don’t know what I am crapping about but I felt like writing…

annoyed!

On June 6, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
I get so annoyed when people uses my God name in vain. God says this God says that! The worst thing is to curse and swaer with my God’s name. I mean come on, get a life! It’s not everything you say God says its true and not everything you says God did He did. It’s not that I don’t believe that God said it and God did it but somethings when people uses God’s name is super ridiculous. This is my God. You want to fool around with other names, I don’t care. You want to call people names, I don’t give a damn but please, not with my God’s name! Sometimes people uses human understanding to say that God says for the sake of saying but hey, do you realise that the 10 Commandments say that Do Not Use His Name in Vain. Somethings are really done and did by God but some are really not. You people just think that using God’s name is such a happy thing. Think people! I’ve had enough. From before camp, till during camp and now after camp I still hear such things from you bunch of people! I’ve said I hate you people using my God’s name and I hate you people cursing and swearing in front of me. Isn’t the stare of mine not enough everytime you say it? When will you people ever grow up and behave like an adult? You are about 18.
I hate people twisting my words too. You want to listen, you listen clearly. You don’t twist my words and say this and that. Sometimes it is really annoying when you hear people says ‘Alvin says this..’. If you want what you want, tell me and I’ll see what you want. In college life, minor things like these struck people like me easily. When doing work or assignment, if you think you aren’t capable, SAY IT! Don’t come and delay all the heck of work of mine. Seriously, sucks!
Tell me today is emo day for me. Yeah, it is. I hate today for some stupid reason you won’t want to know. It’s 6th June. I just hate this date like never before. I am just being honest. The end f today symbolises me going into another year of hurt and pain? I don’t know. When will this ever end? I am thinking a lot today. The past strikes me bad. Not in the mood for anything today. Starbucks was just a temporary remedy. Nothing can make me smile for the 2 someone, for now. I need some sort of remedy. Heal me! :(

over! it’s over!

On June 5, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized
Camp is finally over. Without a doubt, it was one of the greatest camp I myself have ever had. Not because I was organizing it but because God’s presence was so strong in the place. We had many memorable occasions throughout the camp. The LORD blessed us with all 86 campers. I am glad the LORD has chosen and given me this opportunity to serve. It was a great experience for me. It may cost me to be tired, moody and so on but all my sleepless nights were worth every part of it when you see the smile on the campers face. They are just happy with how much the camp has blessed them with. I am sure we brought home something valuable from Golden Sands.
It’s All About Him I would say. Counting Him as my only source and resource was one of the greatest experience I’ve learnt. It was nothing about me but Him alone.
I was quite disappointed with certain people who took responsible lightly. Well, there will always be up and downs in such an event. But God was gracious. I was also quite annoyed with the attitude given to me by certain people who does not have the attitude of submission to authority. Some people just enjoy complaning and not only that, discourages the team and does not listen to instructions. God placed authorities for us for a reason and I am sure that God desires everyon to submit to their authority including myself. Everyone has their own respective authority.
PA was down for the first 2 days. Cause many to starin the voices in camp too. It was a distraction I’d say in terms of communication without the PA as a tool. Worship was great, it could be distracting but things are fine. You see people turning their eyes unto God through worship. No one could deny that Worship brings Change. It changes the lives of many.
Pastor Daniel was a great speaker as well. Many were touched and saved. I’m not in the mood to blog much though. I hope I get the pictures to upload asap.
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*alvink hates tomorrow. He really does. Tomoro will be a year of suffering he has endured. He hope there wouldnt be another year. He’d be moody tomorrow. Or perhaps he is already moody already. He doesnt give a damn though. He thinks no one cares about tomorrow either. :S

re-do tag by max

On June 5, 2008 by alvinkok With 0 Comments - Uncategorized

a. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc on shuffle.
b. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
c. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN, NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
d. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
e. Put this on your blog.

1. If someone says,”Is this okay?”
For All You’ve Done? (Well, for all he has done. Sure okay la)

2. How would you describe yourself?
Consuming Fire (speechless)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl?
All About You (Yeah.. all about Me and my choices :P)

4. How do you feel today?
To The Ends of the Earth (Yeap. Feel like leaving this place and going to the ends of the earth)

5. What is your life’s purpose?
My Best Friend (Wow… errr)

6. What is your motto?
What the World Will Never Take (hahaha)

7. What do your friends think of you?
Salvation is Here (Gosh.. So unrelated)

8. What do you think of your parents?
Tell the World (OMG)

9. What do you think about very often?
Look to You (Looking to Him.. i suppose)

10. What is 2+2?
All I Need is You (hmmm)

11. What do you think of your best friend?
All for Love(I bet all for love they care except one)

12. What do you think of the person you like?
Everyday (lol.. What is with everyday)

13. What is your life?
God is Great (Yeap. he is. I thank God for life)

14. What do you want to be when you grow up?
Magnificent (I suppose)

15. What do you think of when you see the person you like?
This Is How We Overcome (That is how I will overcome I suppose)

16. What will you dance to at your wedding?
When You Tell Me That You Love Me (Well.. at least it is related)

17. What will they play at your funeral?
Rain Down (Opps)

18. What is your hobby/interest?
It’s All About Jesus (true true)

19. What is your biggest fear?
Praise Him (So untrue)

20. What is your biggest secret?
Oceans Will Part (well.. grrr)

21. What do you think of your friends?
At the Cross (Haha.. Crucify them then :P)

22. What will you post this as?
For Who You Are

23. What song would you play during your first time having sex?
Take It All (hahahahahaha)

8 people to tag:
Anyone I suppose.. my usuals

*I’ve done this tag before long time ago.
*I was lsitening to mostly all Christian songs this morning. So, yeah!