Monthly Archives: January 2009

Should I smile?

I am so confused. Updating for the sake of it.
I realize I am getting old. I don’t know why. 20 it’s like next year.
And in a glimpse of an eye, then I am like 50. One by one of my relatives and mother and all are turning 50. This year my uncle, 2 years time my mum, 3 years time my dad.
Can you imagine?
Anyways, CNY Reunion is nothing amusing. Not like I am soo close with my cousins. But it’s just a time to catch up.

And OMG, my relatives are one by one entering APIIT. 2 of them already. March 09 intake.
What the heck is wrong?
I wonder..


Wow, I was just wondering what to type. The moment I opened blogger. The song ‘God of this City’ bu Chris Tomlin just played. Maybe after all, God is reminding me something since my playlist has loads of secular songs as well. But just that the time I wanna blog, the song popped up.

Had an aimless day as usual. Here and there also revolves The Bro. But well, contemplating over a few personal things now. Something that I am still thinking if I should act on it. Or maybe I should take in more time. But time isn’t really on my side. March is it- the end. Should I pursue or let go? I can’t make up my mind. Some thinks it is so easy to decide on this but it isn’t. Many factors to look at. I know I am talking french (no one of you will understand except tht few) But sighs…

On another hand, I am afraid of losing people close to me. I mean for real. It seems such a terrible nightmare when I think about it all the time. I know am not God but I am just afraid. I have loads of crazy nightmare. Enough to probably kill me. There was this thought that something happened to one of my family member (which I loved the most) got kidnapped or ran over. And I was telling myself, No.. And it really haunts me. Hate such thoughts. Praying over it every night.

I will get back to blogging as soon as I am free. =)


I am out of it.

I am out of blogging juice. Officially.
I don’t know what to write and I don’t know what to say.
Maybe I am ‘out-growing’ blogging. I am not that old after old. But I start to think I am.
Many things have been happening in and around me.
Some were fantastic; Some were ordinary and some just sucked big time.

But my life has been like a roller coaster. Once it can be sooo good, and just another second, it can be sooo bad. It’s both extremes. But throughout last year and this year, I noticed I’ve changed quite some bit in terms of my own thoughts. I don’t know how good this is anyways.

I just got back from Singapore exactly a week ago and I think I love Singapore for some things and some I just don’t. But this is life isn’t it? God doesn’t give everything to just one person or one place. He is a fair God and I am amazed by that. Despite whatever weaknesses that it within me, I have always tried to make myself believe I have my own strengths and weaknesses that others don’t. Which is why this makes lives. It’s unique in it’s own special way.

Singapore trip was full of fun and craziness. I was actually there to attend Undignified Singapore 2009 by Grace Methodist Church. This was the team that was in KL just few months back for Undignified KL 2008. They were an awesome team with great hospitality. I managed to experience a night of exuberant worship (which I don’t always get because I am serving), shopping, a visit to Night Safari and Bugis Street (Bugis Street isn’t too amazing after all. Infact, I dislike it). It’s been 4 years since I last been to Singapore and there aren’t much changes. Familiar roads, Familiar stuffs but one thing, food is a no no there. I bet you can’t imagine eating a sugar-filled Char Kuey Teow and Fried Carrot Cake. Sweet like crazy. Okay, maybe Malaysians are too ‘ham-sap’ :P. We put too much salt. But I still enjoy Malaysian food.
Some pictures that I am too lazy to upload:

Apart from that, college has been too easy going. As usual I think I am going to slack and probably die in Degree Level 1. If I keep on going with such a pace.

Officially, new house has been busy. Dad has been enjoying asking people back. I am like, ‘Noooo.. Not again!?’. It’s too many. I think I am having another house warming this Tuesday. Counting, it’s like the 7th house warming already. Isn’t the house warm enough, I wonder? But no matter what, my own house warming will still rock 😛

Apparently, 09 will be a year of torturing for me. Hearing tough and terrible comments can kill you. But well, I gotta endure. And for your info, it is also gonna be busy as I am taking over Jessie as ROCK President 2009. So, sounds cool? Erm, I don’t know. I should just remain speechless for now till I really get to my office. I mean get things working.

Chinese New Year is coming. And it is nothing about angpaus. But of course, it matters in a way.. haha.But it is another New year to probably be happy about.. I hope I can have stuffs to talk about then just my plain boring life in my next post. Which I myself don’t even know when.. 😛

am FINALLY back.

I am finally back from all the internet-deprived days.
My internet is finally fixed and I am having a cool time using it. Although it’s still slow but I thank God it works. Better than nothing right?
I pray God will speed up the connection though.

Singapore, here I come tomorrow!

I pray I won’t lose the bet of a movie and a lunch to you! Muahaha


Will be away at Singapore tomorrow till Monday.
Net is still not done. Oh, it sucks big time.
I am looking forward to going to Singapore! =]
And I just watched the whole video for ADORE 08 last night. I mean the live recording… heh

i am back.. NOT..

I am onlining in college. Nothing amazing. TM Net is screwed up. 2 weeks without Internet at home. Have been lepaking and doing work at Ben’s place instead. Thank God just behind my place. Assignments without Internet can die. So yeah, either Ben’s place or we go out and use wi-fi outside while he is playing SIMS. But well, I need my Internet back…*Please pray*

But I thank God for him laaaa.. :)