Seriously, life is miserable people…
I got some of my results, and it isn’t that satisfying although i might get some of the best results..

This is killing me…..
Form 4 is like a nightmare to me…
I am just sppechless, as usual…

But for one thing… i enjoy my classsssss….
4/O just rocks… we have fun and we are just pure crazy….
we do lots of nonsence in the class, so,and i enjoy it to the maximum….
it is just amazing… it amazes meeeeeeeeeee
i hope while having fun in class, i still get to do well lahhhh

it’s life cool?
i always wander in my very own heart…

Life has been a like a roller-coaster for me.. Many ups and downs in life…

I have just finish my exams, it’s like a relieve over my shoulder…
Exams is seriously tough.. I have never sat for an exam as tough as this, seriously…
SPM is like a nightmare to me…
I have never thought it is this tough though…
But life still goes on…
There is no more bocor-bocor as it is a school exam, not the government sent paper…
Bocor-bocor might not work long term as it only works for the government exams, because everyone knows our government is corrupted….

I seriously don’t know what else to blog, my brain is empty at the moment….

Will blog when i know what to say, yeah…. speechless

Argh, exams fever is indeed tiring, stressful, stupid, useless and whatever bad words there is in the world…
It not just cause mental pain but physical pain.

#1. i dont get to go to toilet although it’s a more-than 2 hour paper
#2. my hand got a blue-black as i write many things in one day
#3. my eye is pain watching so many words in those few hours

Isn’t it bodoh, or so i called it stupid… Sitting for exams, *sigh*

I have always hate exams and never like it….

Anyway, back to the same thing: MALAYSIAN EDUCATION SYSTEM…

life is full of suprises and challenges…
it is amazing to see how things works in my life as well as in the life of others…

I just had a day of seriousness and fun-ness in church today…
it’s something great…
I lead worship in First Service AGAIN, but it is seriously suprising…
As it was pouring like cats and dogs, no one turn up in church till 8.15 where only 2 people were there beside me, grace and my dad.
I was like praying so hard, like … God, why did you put me here again to discourage me and give me a hard time of leading worship, and i just don’t wanna be singing karaoke whoe worship session, i really pray and cried out to the LORD and the amazing thing was, by 8.20 people started coming in.. I was relieved as praise session have not ended, so that i can get people into worship.

See, God never fails me and he prove me wrong and i learn that i should always trust in HIM, because he is amazing…

I slept the whole afternoon as i have bit of headache…
i hope i don’t get sick because I have many history of being sick right school reopens…
I know it might sound like lies, but it’s true…

I am back from Broga Campsite, Negeri Sembilan.
After 2days of complete rest, I’m finally back to blogging…

Life is interesting(maybe cuz it’s holidays) but i hope it would not end here (as it is da last day of my holidays).

About ROCK Camp, it’s interesting to see how God works in each and every ones lives there. We really had a good time and a time of great fellowship as we share and care for each other…

I arrived a day late which was on Monday(normal campers left on Sunday). Isn’t it interesting also too know that they have finished all the torturous games by the time i reached there? I guess i made the real right choice by going a day later. I went with Ashley, Rachel and Ruby with the cute lil Myvi full with loads of food and spaghetti…

I was placed in the ‘Philip’ group- Double ‘P’, double ‘I’, Philip’s cool, Philip rules. I had great good members erm, like.. Joseph, Christopher, Ma Esther, Liang Wen, Jiun Kei, Yi Hueih, Ching Suan and a few more which I can’t remember at the moment..

The theme was Who Am I? I know I am special in God’s sight.. I have always knew that… hahaha… Well, we had cool things in camp… And suprisingly, although I did not shout much, I almost lose my voice the last day of camp. Thank Grace for her wonderful Strepsils, if not, I don’t even know if I can lead worship on the last day. yeah, worship was great.. Seeing people being so energetic is indeed great…

As for accomodation, we stayed in cabins like those being stayed by the construction workers and we guys had to give the liberty to the girls to take the air cond room. Guys cabin is kinda far, without air conds, dirty and also have to bear with the limited water and irritating switches for the water.

As for food, it sucks to the max.. Believe me! I have never eaten rice which was as hard as rocks, mee as tasteless as water and syrup as sweet as sugar( yeah, i know i am exxaggerating, but it’s really bad..) The badness of food is my point here… I thank God for the spagghetti Ashley made for the four of us who arrived late, it was delicious, Ashie…

As for camp speaker, Graeme Tonkin, he was just okay… But i guess he could be much better, but I can see he is lethargic after the camp he had before, and I guess he will also be tired after ROCk Camp in the next camp he is going too.. He have 3 camps in a row.. Wow!He keep emphasizing who we are and who God is and assuring us that God is always there for us when we need Him and how great He is… Assuring us the promises God made and to comfort us of our fears…

For altar call, many people teared the night where Jennifer starts to create the momentum as the Holy Spirit is leading the whole congregation. Many people teared and rededicate themself to the Lord. 2 people excepted Christ and this shows God works miraculously in each and every of our lives.We had almost 2 hours of prayer by Graeme Tonkin to most of the campers personally. For that, they postponed talent time.

For talent time, this years’ topic is seriously lame.. Lame to the max.. We were given topics of reality TV Shows- The Apprentice that turn out to be Appentys, ER-Emergency Room to became Spiderman, America’s Next Top Model featuring James Bond, William Hung and Bill Gates, LOST which became lost in somewhere far far away… It was interesting but kinda stupid…lolx

I had much fun on the last night where most of us slept damn late…

My roomates were fun too-Jonathan Kevinkumar, Ru En, Jerry, Jonathan, Wilson, Pang, and Jiun Kei. We ahd lotsa fun staying in the cabin tho…

As for now, me and Esther preparing for year-end Natonal Youth Camp in Sarawak. KLBC is doing games and talent time AGAIN! Argh, anyway, we’re still praying that God will gve us direction that we can follow as we head towards the camp.

I am having exams next week, do pray for me because I am not exactly prepared….

See ya…

Yeah, i am back from LTC, LEADERSHIP TRAINING COURSE FOR COUNCILLOR PREFECTS 2006 held at Pantai Indah Seaview Resort, Klang

It has been a great esposure and a good experience joining this wonderful camp. Getting to know each other closer it’s something cool… I do personally enjoy the camp althought it is a bit tiring!

Life is full of choices and I am proud to say that i have made a right choice not to attend the other Negeri Sembilan Leadership Camp although teacher did ask me to go! Thank God that I manage to make the right choice and at the right time. In life, i find that choices are important. The choices we make can not only affect us but our surrounding people. I always learn to think twice before making a desicion, as it is vital in my life as a young teenager. I do face challenges, and challenges surround me are temptations at times. temptations can be terrible, it can lure you into something and create a big fuss out of it. I have no explanation as to why life is like that and why tempatations occur or even why challenges arise. All I know is, to give my best shot in whatever I do and to always be the best. Argh, enough of lecturing my self and mem-bore-kan people with my philosophies.

Is life really short? Yes, it is.. No matter what, one can’t deny that life is short although most of the time, my 24hours are like a hundred years to me. But it is cool at times to know that I have so much time to complete my work. My assignments, projects are piling up. I have no idea on what to do and how to do because I have been dreaming in class for many months. I am in a world of my own, thinking of things of my own, feeling the moods of my own and enjoying life like nothing have ever happen?

Yes, exams is up next next week and I am not prepared. Exams to me is nothing nowadays. To the maximum, all i do is just to read a line or 2 before i enter the exams hall. And i do know, most of the time, failure is in my hands. Why? Because I did not prepare! Why do I know it and yet I am not doing it? It’s because i just don’t feel like it..

And i am proud to tell many of you that I am going for ROCK Camp 2006 this year. Isn’t it cool? But yes, I am not going all 4days and 3 nights. I will be going down to Broga on Monday evening and be with them till they return. Although, I may not be a key person there or I may not be incharging of anything, I am happy that I am able to go and enjoy myself (Again?) in this short time with the ROCkers and many other friends around.

LTC? I’ve learn many many things from this years’ LTC. It’s interesting to see how prefects behave outside of school and inside of school. It’s different. And you can see many characters of each other. And i find it really cool. This makes us united as a team. This years theme is ‘Breaking the barriers, I believe in you’. The theme song is I Believe In You by Celine Dion and IL DIVO. Overall, I had fun and i think i am going to miss those funny funny things we did in the camp.

Next up, I’ve watch POSEIDON… it’s kinda a good show but not real enough. Fake to some extent. But I just can’t resist myself but to tell you guys that I LIKE THE THEME SONG real much…

American Idol winner? Taylor Hicks? argh…. Nevermind, Katharine will do better that him in the future.

If you guys didn’t know, I had Prefect Gathering last Saturday.. We had 2 schools end up coming, which was SBU and CBN and i hereby would like to say that MGS and MBS did not turn up because of some lame reasons that no one in this world can accept their reasons….

Long blog huh?? More to come… Many things happen in my life in just a glimpse of an eye…

Holidays is here, it may be like a dream come through to many people. But to me, it just sucks.

I have become stupider lately…
Since PMR, i have been lazying around, and when i start to miss class for drama for 3 weeks, it makes me lazier…

Exams is coming right after the holidays. I can’t imagine how i would fare this term. It’s shit! SPM is not as easy as I would have thought.. I hope to go into a international school. But my brain partially tells me that I shouldn’t because I would have to re-mingle, re-learn, which will make things even worse…

Life is beginning to be tough! I just don’t know what to do at times. I am feeling blur as ever…
This isn’t the kind of life I really want! I don’t see a bright future in myself…
Why? I really have know answer for that question! Only God holds the answer…
I have this really weird feeling… And i don’t know what to do! I am stuck!
I do have many choices, but never 1 seems right…
I am going for a camp tomorrow. I don’t know what is going to happen in this camp but I am sick of this! I am not feeling really good about it!

I am having headache now… I think i might be thinking too much! Am I?
I tried to be good… But at times, it’s not my choice!
I tried to be a perfectionist… But i can’t

Listening to the song Love Of My Life now, makes me worse!
Relationship matters, I am just gonna leave it aside, at the moment…
I am handling too many things…
Relationship with friends? Still allright I guess…

I really need someone to talk to… It’s tough… I won’t simply tell people my feelings, but I really need someone to talk to… Life is making me crazy… How long more is it going to be? I really have no answers for myself neither do I have answers for other people…
I am confused…
I need a break…
LIFE IS TOUGH…

Well, just came back from debate luncheon in school..

We had a debate lucheon as we were da KL Champs for Parliamentary Debates.
I was invited because I was a debator of ISKL 2006

We had a time of fun, chit-chat..here and there…

And we made known that…
-We will be the KL and NATIONAL Champs for debates;
-We will get medals from ISKL;
-We will try not to let VI get the overall champions;
-We will be KL and NATIONAL Champs for drama.
We have said we will study hard so that we can be involve in the above to make the school proud again…

We have also get the support from all our teachers and we have said we will bring the most talented team to, debates, drama and ISKL 2007.

Well, in just a glimpse of an eye- May 3rd, Drama Competition is over

Here is a summary on the recent-ended Drama Competition…

It is definitly something to be proud of. A team consist of 15 members went proudly to SMK Convent Bukit Nanas on May 3rd at 8am singing Onward St John’s. A team that went there with a hope of getting into the finals and to defend the title as KL Champions. Indeed, all schools saw us and were terrified. Just like what Ms Ellina said during our visit for the first 4 person to CBN, ‘All schools look as you as winners. It’s just 4 of you! What if 15? Many teachers said looking at the 4 students, they are going to be champions again’. Indeed, the whole of KL is looking highly on us for this annual competition.

The first school to perform was the hosting school, SMK Convent Bukit Nanas. CBN did a drama about a coffee shop. The drama was titled- ‘Coffee, Tea or Mee’. It was like a kopitiam story that revolves about this son who came back not recognising the family, but only recognise the family’s property. The story ended when the son realises that he was all wrong! It was a comedy like play but unfortunately, it went over the time limit of 20minutes. Being the hosting school, the timekeeper was them themself. Therefore, CBN was safe with a preformance of 21 minutes. Their voice projection was indeed terrible. I was sitting in the 5th row and I could barely hear a word utter by any of the actors.

We were the 11th school to perform. Because we were the 2nd last schools, many CBNers’ which were audience were like asking ‘Mana St.John’s?’, ‘Is St.John’s in the competition?’, ‘Did they pull out?’. With this responses, indeed, everyone is expecting a bang from us!

We went out when school no 9th perform to get ourself changed and be into the character. Before we enter, we had a one-minute silence and teacher came in and told us ‘With the dramas inside, you have hope. Only CBN and Wangsa Melawati were not bad, but you can be better. It is us that can only take the title away from them‘, teacher gave us extra confidence as we are about to enter.

It was later our turn, when they announced, School No 11- Wish You Were Here…., which was our drama title. We set up the stage professionaly and we amazed the CBN prefects behind, for sure! They were like, ‘Oh it’s St.John’s’. It was like a once- in-a-lifetime thingy that they MUST SEE. The fact was, the stage was full with prefects and we didnt even have the space to put our props. There were about 15prefects there. And i have no idea, what they were doing.

The curtain opens…. Our story is this…
This drama revolves around a young boy, Rahim, who is neglected by his busy father Osman. Rahim tries to cope with his loneliness by talking to his ‘uncle’. As time goes by, Rahim feels that his life gets from bad to worse. Ironically, it is made even worse when his father asks a favour of him. The favour was to deliver a package to a drug dealer. Rahim was so stressed by the pressure and lack of love that he even got into trouble in school with teachers for not completing his homework. Eventually, Rahim realizes that he has been a bad boy and wants to change his path to lead a better life. So, he decides not to deliver the package. For that, his father gets caught and is held hostage at a warehouse by the drug dealer. When the father and son was trying to run away, the henchman shoot on the dad’s leg. But because of the father’s love and conscience, he just save his son. Rahim was so terrified and all he tought was just to give a call to the ‘uncle’. But when he calls that ‘uncle’, the father’s handphone ring. It shocked himself and he couldn’t believe for himself that all the ‘uncle’ was an imagination. It is a drama that portrays what the lack of a father’s love could do to his son.

It was a thought-provoking drama and to encourage thinking skills. CBN and SBS girls were shedding tears at the ending of our play. I was amazed how we manage to bring it to such a ‘high’ momentum. We got a standing ovation from the audience but some of the CBN girls were like ‘Apa ni?’, ‘What ayah? What uncle? tak faham lah’. They were indeed thinking. SO, we achieve what we wanted-thought provoking!

As I was walking our from the hall, SBS girls that walk pass me, commented ‘Sekolah you terel drama, huh?’ I was like ‘Owh, thank you!’. I was indeed happy for all that happen on stage. Nothing screwed up!

The school after us, we did a comedy on LOST fall flat as we ended the momentum to high. Well, our fault!

The jufges went to the meeting session to decide the finalist for about 2hours. Imagine, it’s 2hours, 120minutes….
All schools were saying… it’s either’Wangsa Melawati and St.John’s or ‘CBN and St.John’s’. But St.John’s name was well assured to be in the finals. I expected Wangsa Melawati to be in the finals with us as they were to our standard.

To my amazement, they announced ‘Wangsa Melawati and SMK Convent Bukit Nanas’ as the finalist. I was SHOCKED! What? Anything wrong? Anyone changed the results? All schools were boo-ing CBN as the finalists. Teachers of Datuk Lokman and students of SBS especially, send us their condolences. They acknowledge we were good! CBN audiences also came and acknowledge us. It was clear we were the sole winner in the eyes of the audience. But, I guess it was just pure luck.

Well, to cut the long story short, Wangsa Melawati got champions this year, Victoria Institution got 2nd while CBN got 3rd. Most of the finalist were rubbish, especially Air Panas, Convent Sentul and Methodist Girls School. We would have at least got 2nd if we were there.

I supported Victoria Institution for the finals. But I guess they were good but i was kinda a bit disspaointed. I expected more from them. But they were good! It’s the first few times, i support VI perhaps…

Pn Elizabeth and many of our teachers said, ‘It’s okay, we will definitly do a big come-back next year. I assure you of this. We will go to the furthest…’

Teacher said, indeed, our zone is a tough zone and we can’t do anything

For this, this recently-concluded Inter-School English Language Drama Competition wasn’t a big achievement at all because they weren’t good. Not exactly all, weren’t good, but MOST OF IT!

Nothing is fair in this world… This really gets me frustrated and pissed off! I definitly wanna see a come-back for St.John’s next year. There goes our 2nights stay in Selangor and Malacca…

And by the way, the best actress from CBN did acknowledge Kevin as a better actor…
Well, it’s pure luck….

I really thank God for this oppurtunity to serve the school and the drama team as the Manager and also, sort off Director for this year’s drama. Although we did not win, we did not lose neither…

My drama team: YOU ARE ALWAYS THE BEST! FIDE ET LABORE WILL REMAIN OUR GUIDE AND WE ARE WINNERS OURSELF AND WINNERS IN THE EYES OF THE AUDIENCE! CONGRATS ON A JOB WELL DONE!!