holidays

Holidays is here, it may be like a dream come through to many people. But to me, it just sucks.

I have become stupider lately…
Since PMR, i have been lazying around, and when i start to miss class for drama for 3 weeks, it makes me lazier…

Exams is coming right after the holidays. I can’t imagine how i would fare this term. It’s shit! SPM is not as easy as I would have thought.. I hope to go into a international school. But my brain partially tells me that I shouldn’t because I would have to re-mingle, re-learn, which will make things even worse…

Life is beginning to be tough! I just don’t know what to do at times. I am feeling blur as ever…
This isn’t the kind of life I really want! I don’t see a bright future in myself…
Why? I really have know answer for that question! Only God holds the answer…
I have this really weird feeling… And i don’t know what to do! I am stuck!
I do have many choices, but never 1 seems right…
I am going for a camp tomorrow. I don’t know what is going to happen in this camp but I am sick of this! I am not feeling really good about it!

I am having headache now… I think i might be thinking too much! Am I?
I tried to be good… But at times, it’s not my choice!
I tried to be a perfectionist… But i can’t

Listening to the song Love Of My Life now, makes me worse!
Relationship matters, I am just gonna leave it aside, at the moment…
I am handling too many things…
Relationship with friends? Still allright I guess…

I really need someone to talk to… It’s tough… I won’t simply tell people my feelings, but I really need someone to talk to… Life is making me crazy… How long more is it going to be? I really have no answers for myself neither do I have answers for other people…
I am confused…
I need a break…
LIFE IS TOUGH…