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I’ve come to a point to see that life is really unfair at times. I used to hear about it so much. So much. But I refused to accept the fact that life is unfair. Foolish isn’t it? Certain people who deserves nothing but ignorance; i give them full care, full attention. It’s so hard to chance how you care for one in split seconds. It is basically impossible. Reality strikes that life is really unfair. No one has the same looks, same attitudes, same style. Everyone has something different to offer. But my resistance to change is what that is annoying me. I basically hate this strong will of mine to give in or to give up. I tried so hard yet it was back to square one. Accepting the fact that life is unfair is easy; adapting to the changes is tough. Like I said, I am getting old. Old people hates changes.

I’ve been busy celebrating my advance birthday as my parents are leaving for Praque tomorrow. You may think it is freedom; as many thinks so. But i think their absence brings inconvenience to me and somehow my family. I find that I lose my pillar of support and strength during their absence. Sitting for exams will also be a miserable misery during this point of time. Like it or not; Convenience or troublesome- I still have to go through it. No one to get me from LRT and all. I will suffer for the few days I suppose. Or perhaps plus minus 3 weeks?

Yesterday I had my advanced birthday with my uncle. We had steamboat at home as it was upon my request. Lately I just go crazy over steamboat. Just now, I had another session with my Grandfather and Aunty. Nothing special but it was the heart that counts and nothing else. I look forward to my birthday but I don’t look forward to ageing. Life gets tougher as I get older.

I know I am a great procrastinator. No one can beats me. I’ve told myself to open and run through the Maths notes today. But I did absolutely nothing today when I know I freaking suck at Mathematics. I don’t know how I am going to sit for the test but I really need to buck up and keep promises to myself. Why do I always bother keeping promises of others when I can’t keep my own promise? Sleeping the whole day makes me a good pig. I was suprised at how much I slept today. I seldom been able to sleep so much. Or perhaps I didn’t really get my fair share of sleep last night? I am not sure.

I really want to write some notes down for certain people. Don’t ask me who if the names are not mentioned. Don’t ask why for I will not tell you either. Some notes for some important people.

Miss SC:
Someone I’ve always look for when i am in need. Sometimes taken her for granted. Sometimes annoyed and pissed her off but she was always there. Someone who is ready to listen absolutely anytime anyday. A nice girl that can’t be found anywhere. I can never thank her enough for her availability for me at all times. I wished sometimes I’ve never took her for granted. But she is definitly someone I cherish a lot.

Mr Lil S:
Someone I’ve always been crapping a lot with lately. His jokes and phrases never fails to amuse me and make me laugh. A great joker and someone I do love and care for. Having him in my life brightens my day. He keeps his promises all the time. =)

Mr I:
Someone who has changed quite a lot since I knew him a few years ago. His priorities now are so different. Talking to him is so tough. He does annoy me but nevertheless, someone whom I have no control over since Day 1. Strong in opinions and thoughts although might not be right all the time. But I seldom talk to him now. Or perhaps I don’t.

Miss S:
A nice young little girl. I said that she is not innocent but she claims that innocence is the last word I’d like to use to describe her. She is intelligent. Chatting with her makes me feels useless at times but she is good at and tries to patch up things all the single time which I refuse at times. I am sorry for that but somethings can’t be rush on my side. Sometimes being annoyed by me. All in all, she likes to SS but she is good enough to SS =)

Mr A:
Someone who is more busy than I am. Nevertheless, I hear from him from time to time and he’s so crazy and passionate over ‘certain’ things =D

Mr B:
I don’t know what to say because I don’t want to get emo over it. If he doesn’t want to patch things up then let’s just say goodbye. I know my patience are running low. But missing him in my life brings great pain.

Some-College-Friends:
All I can say this great family that I am in jst never stopped caring for one another and boosting each other up during each other’s time of miseries.

These are just some thoughts I would like to pen down.