disappointments

No one can express how frustrated and pissed off I was yesterday in college. Thanks to the administrative staffs of Asia Pacific University College of Innovation Technology. I(We) have been bottling up our pathetic feelings and sometimes I find it so hard to let go as they are still the admin staffs. But well, people just don’t realise that working attitudes are so important.

I honestly got annoyed and pissed (not emo) about them. It was when I gladly followed instructions to submit my Extenuating Circumstances (EC) Form because I was absent from college and I missed my Mathematics Test. I told my lecturer before hand and it was then an agreement that I was allowed to sit for the test the next class held. However, when I was back. The lecturer went missing. And laltey I’ve heard news that he is in LimKokWing. And my new permanent lecturer only came in like 2 weeks later. I did my job by asking him for a resit. He told me to see the admin because it was not the correct procedure.

And so I did. And now, one month later, my EC Application Result is out. Thursday they gave me a call to say that it has been approved. Friday I went to collect the letter of approval to resit. To my suprise, the result of my EC was upheld. And to resit I was required to pay a sum of RM 80. And then I walked back to my class from the main campus which was like 5minutes walk because my class was there. I got to be a little annoyed. Thereafter, when I reached my class, I saw that the letter wrote that it is Mathematics Assignment. So I double check with my Programme Leader if it was the same. She said NO! So, I walked back to the Admin office at the main campus again. I waited for the whole freaking 30minutes for the lady to attend to me.

And when they saw me, they double check the file, true enough. Their mistake. Firstly, it got me real pissed that I have to pay RM 80 even with a letter from the church for a valid reason and promised made by my previous lecturer. Secondly, I have to walk here and there as if the campus is just next to each other. Thirdly, the I have to return the letter and wait for a new one and I still have to pay RM 80.

Is the college punishing me for some promises they made? I have no idea. But the college should know that it is the lecturer’s fault to promise me for a resit. It has got nothing to do with me. And now innocently, I have to fork out a big sum of RM 80 for the test. I mean fork out from my pocket money because I don’t want my parents to make a big fuss out of it. But again, they are punishing me for their mistakes and promises AGAIN!

Everytime we hand in our assignments into the Admin Office, the attitude given to us is just freaking terrible. Sometimes, even we cannot take it. Handing in assignments for me and my coursemates are like a relieve of our effort and there they are showing us all kinds of ridiculous faces and manners.Do they even have some manners to at least to their job with a smile? Fine. No greetings and all but just do it well. No asking us to wait for hours and so on. It is sometimes so frustrating.

While I was waiting for the lady to check my EX thingy, the lady was free. So me and Stephanie actually asked for our PDSM Assignment worth 50%. PDSM Lecturer also left us after taking in our assignments. Our new lecturer says it is with the admin, they will be seeing us next week. And week after week. The same thing happened. So we asked. The girl initially told us that it will be out a few days time. Fine. Few minutes later, she told me her collagues told her that the assignment is not with the admin. They need time to look for it. Give them a few more days.

I was so close to bursting. First, our assignments is not with the current lecturer, not with the admin, no marks released. So where the heck is the assignment handed in like 2 months ago? I was like, ‘Excuse me, give me a break! It is my final day in Semester 1. Is this how you are treating me?’. I jsut couldnt help but walked off. My EC is stucked. Or perhaps the RM80 will fly away. I am so broke now especially. My Assignment is yet to be found. I feel so demotivated being at the position at that time.

My mind was filled with questions: What a college I am in. I was just wondering to myself. How am I gonna survive here another 3 years more? And worst still, now I lose another RM 80. I am really officially broke.

On the lighter note, I got my new toy: mp4 today. I am clueless how to operate it yet but will do asap. It is a complicated toy I suppose. For my advance birthday gift. And have also been receiving angpaus already for my birthday as an advanced. I feel a lil fortunate and blessed although the trips I want didn’t came through yet. But well, I am contented. For now. At least. The biggest gift I’d still want is just someone’s heart. Argh. Forget it. But I am gonna be legally legal really soon. My dad was just saying that I’d get my own car in my 21st birthday. I know it’s late but better than nothing.

I am shifting house around September or October. Nightmare begins. But a more comfortable and wide place. I do look forward! =)

Semester 2 will hopefully be a better semester. I hope I get enough rest during the buffle week next week. I still crave for my holiday during my birthday weekend.

Give me a break
Get off my back
Give me a day to stay on the rack

*Being 18 is no joke. Now I start to feel that I am really ageing. Life is what I am looking forward to. 18 years of God’s grace and mercy just amazes me. His protection, His care, His love; I am amazed.=)