death?

Is death everything? Is it the only thing that can make somone really strong inside cry? I wonders with eyes open now. I’ve been hearing this word for quite a number of times this week. It’s not just mere words but it is in this real world. I know you might say, ‘Everyone has to go through it eventually’, but in reality, we are (or perhaps) many of us are so scared of this word death. Whether is it people dying or you yourself dying. It is such a torture to even hear that word death. Although I know where I am eventually going, but I cannot deny that I fear the word death.

An aunty who used to look at me when I was young, buy things for me, carry me through the service is now in a critical condition. She only has 6 months to live. She is having lung cancer. And she herself doesnt know that she only has 6 months. She is now in the hospital i suppose. Although I no longer click to her as much as I was young, but I still do care. I wish there was something I can do. Well, I don’t know. I am so confused

Apart from that, Su May was calling me with an urgent mode in the evening. Asking about Ben/Benny. She was asking if my friend was named Ben. I was like yeah! And she told me that there was this guy claiming to be the little brother of Ben said Ben passed away. My heart sank. The first thing that came to my mind was HIM. I couldnt imagine anything and I was blank for a moment. I didn’t know what to do, who to sms, what to think of, who to call. And she was calming me down saying should be him, shouldnt be him. And to keep the story short, it wasnt him. It was someone else. But it woke me up just a bit. Really. I am still in shocking mode though. =S

Life Is Short. Appreciate What You Have Before it’s Too Late.

Jesus Loves You =)