I find it so hard to forgive people nowadays..
The word ‘It’s okay’, ‘Don’t worry’, ‘Everything is fine’, I just can’t express it just like that!
Yess, it is like taking the world from meee…
Well, of course i do forgive people, but not everyone,
sometimes, things done needs a lot of time to recover or perhaps reflection over the wrongdoings of others…
It is not that I don’t want to forgive, but it is really hard at times…

People who have not talk to me for long due to some issues suddenly came up to me this few days and say hi and his person started noticing me! =p
I was like, ‘owwh… okay’ and yeah, u guessed it right there… I did not replied this person!
I felt a lil guilty after that but i think i need time to really see what works best between us.
Instead of just saying a hi and accepting people’s apology just like that is kinda lame plus i have NOT forget what actually happened…
Although what actually happened wasn’t a big deal after alll..
I just felt uncomfortable replying this person anymore…
I am controlling my emotions once again,
the guilty feelings are felt is so strong till for once, i thought I was the one in the wrong..
Knowing well, I wasn’t! =p
On the other hand, being brought up from a CHristian background which teaches me to forgive and forget is yet not forgotten…
I am trying, and I hope I am not trying too hard and that everything will just be okay…
I don’t mind having this person as a friend, but I need to take consideration of the things he has done to me, the influence he is going to give to me, the impact he is in my life…
I don’t wanna be influenced and affected by people so easily…
Therefore, a real forgiveness from me needs a lot of time….

I am sincerely sorry to say this but yeah, this is what I have been thinking for the past days..

And owh, yeah…
I’ve been invited by Actors Studio Bangsar to be involve in a pioneer program that wll be aired on National Television. I don’t know if it is really genuine, but will seee =p

And yeah, acting maybe one of my interest but not my occupation, I hope…
But wherever my Lord leads, I follow…

Alvin