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Pn Vijaya is exclaiming that the drama team is creating more dramas in class..
What on earth is that kinda nonsence? but i seriously don’t really understand what she meant by that!
She, as my ‘Penyelia Tingkatan’, who is fierce outside, soft inside has many different philosophys and she always lecture us on communication skills in class, as the nerdy frigid Boon Jim has no communication skills other than study study and study. It’s kinda fun to see her bullying and giving work to Boon Jim to make him not-to-study so much!

Let me share with you people on some philosophys she have for us. (By the way, she has 1 or even more everytime she enters the class)Here it goes,
‘Laziness is taking a break before even getting tired’
‘Malaysia is a holy place for terrorists’
‘Budak ST.John suka amalan Jahiliah, sebab itu peperiksaan sekolah tek pernah keluar’

I have no idea why she likes to compare us with Victorians, but I guess to her, St John’s is never good. And the question here is, why she wants to teach in St John’s if we are not good. Plenty of teachers are fighting to enter smart schools! She always claim that VI is smarter than us, and she will blah a lot about Victorians- saying Victorian is smart but have no communication skills and manners and so on…
She just likes to compare and we are never good enough..

Similarly, life is just like that…
No one is ever good enough!
There is indeed a difference between perfection and excellence
God has said to desire for excellence and not perfection
Prefectionist is being perfect and no one is perfect since the day we were born.
Excellence is different. God is an excellent God; therefore, we need to give Him our best!
I have never aim to be perfect but I always aim for the best.
I don’t know if that is a good habit!

I have also discovered that giving our best doesn’t assure each and very one of us our best!
For example, Shaun. He studied really hard and he failed most of the exams. I am seriously sad for Him. He can even contemplate suicide after receiving his results. I just don’t know how to help him. But I hope my encouragement will always remind him. His father is seriously strict, he NOW has no handphone and is always on curfew. I seriously don’t know how to help him. Teach me, someone!

My results has gotten from good to bad and bad to worse. I don’t know how to help myself. I am just stuck. I know I am fighting with within myself at times and making silly desicions, but I just can’t help it. I always felt that I have lost my brains or something after entering Form 4. The fight within me is seriously bring hurt at times. I don’t know how to help my self yet, but I am looking for aternatives. I wanna be the top again! I don’t wanna fall. I just don’t know what is wrong with me! Work load from school is getting more and more, and at times, i don’t even get to finish it! (or is it I don’t wanna do?). I just don’t know what to say.

As for my outside life, I am totally fine with it. Friends and family is all as normal.

I guess i’ll stop here… see ya people…ciaoz… tag me lar…