it’s life cool?
i always wander in my very own heart…

Life has been a like a roller-coaster for me.. Many ups and downs in life…

I have just finish my exams, it’s like a relieve over my shoulder…
Exams is seriously tough.. I have never sat for an exam as tough as this, seriously…
SPM is like a nightmare to me…
I have never thought it is this tough though…
But life still goes on…
There is no more bocor-bocor as it is a school exam, not the government sent paper…
Bocor-bocor might not work long term as it only works for the government exams, because everyone knows our government is corrupted….

I seriously don’t know what else to blog, my brain is empty at the moment….

Will blog when i know what to say, yeah…. speechless

Argh, exams fever is indeed tiring, stressful, stupid, useless and whatever bad words there is in the world…
It not just cause mental pain but physical pain.

#1. i dont get to go to toilet although it’s a more-than 2 hour paper
#2. my hand got a blue-black as i write many things in one day
#3. my eye is pain watching so many words in those few hours

Isn’t it bodoh, or so i called it stupid… Sitting for exams, *sigh*

I have always hate exams and never like it….

Anyway, back to the same thing: MALAYSIAN EDUCATION SYSTEM…

life is full of suprises and challenges…
it is amazing to see how things works in my life as well as in the life of others…

I just had a day of seriousness and fun-ness in church today…
it’s something great…
I lead worship in First Service AGAIN, but it is seriously suprising…
As it was pouring like cats and dogs, no one turn up in church till 8.15 where only 2 people were there beside me, grace and my dad.
I was like praying so hard, like … God, why did you put me here again to discourage me and give me a hard time of leading worship, and i just don’t wanna be singing karaoke whoe worship session, i really pray and cried out to the LORD and the amazing thing was, by 8.20 people started coming in.. I was relieved as praise session have not ended, so that i can get people into worship.

See, God never fails me and he prove me wrong and i learn that i should always trust in HIM, because he is amazing…

I slept the whole afternoon as i have bit of headache…
i hope i don’t get sick because I have many history of being sick right school reopens…
I know it might sound like lies, but it’s true…

I am back from Broga Campsite, Negeri Sembilan.
After 2days of complete rest, I’m finally back to blogging…

Life is interesting(maybe cuz it’s holidays) but i hope it would not end here (as it is da last day of my holidays).

About ROCK Camp, it’s interesting to see how God works in each and every ones lives there. We really had a good time and a time of great fellowship as we share and care for each other…

I arrived a day late which was on Monday(normal campers left on Sunday). Isn’t it interesting also too know that they have finished all the torturous games by the time i reached there? I guess i made the real right choice by going a day later. I went with Ashley, Rachel and Ruby with the cute lil Myvi full with loads of food and spaghetti…

I was placed in the ‘Philip’ group- Double ‘P’, double ‘I’, Philip’s cool, Philip rules. I had great good members erm, like.. Joseph, Christopher, Ma Esther, Liang Wen, Jiun Kei, Yi Hueih, Ching Suan and a few more which I can’t remember at the moment..

The theme was Who Am I? I know I am special in God’s sight.. I have always knew that… hahaha… Well, we had cool things in camp… And suprisingly, although I did not shout much, I almost lose my voice the last day of camp. Thank Grace for her wonderful Strepsils, if not, I don’t even know if I can lead worship on the last day. yeah, worship was great.. Seeing people being so energetic is indeed great…

As for accomodation, we stayed in cabins like those being stayed by the construction workers and we guys had to give the liberty to the girls to take the air cond room. Guys cabin is kinda far, without air conds, dirty and also have to bear with the limited water and irritating switches for the water.

As for food, it sucks to the max.. Believe me! I have never eaten rice which was as hard as rocks, mee as tasteless as water and syrup as sweet as sugar( yeah, i know i am exxaggerating, but it’s really bad..) The badness of food is my point here… I thank God for the spagghetti Ashley made for the four of us who arrived late, it was delicious, Ashie…

As for camp speaker, Graeme Tonkin, he was just okay… But i guess he could be much better, but I can see he is lethargic after the camp he had before, and I guess he will also be tired after ROCk Camp in the next camp he is going too.. He have 3 camps in a row.. Wow!He keep emphasizing who we are and who God is and assuring us that God is always there for us when we need Him and how great He is… Assuring us the promises God made and to comfort us of our fears…

For altar call, many people teared the night where Jennifer starts to create the momentum as the Holy Spirit is leading the whole congregation. Many people teared and rededicate themself to the Lord. 2 people excepted Christ and this shows God works miraculously in each and every of our lives.We had almost 2 hours of prayer by Graeme Tonkin to most of the campers personally. For that, they postponed talent time.

For talent time, this years’ topic is seriously lame.. Lame to the max.. We were given topics of reality TV Shows- The Apprentice that turn out to be Appentys, ER-Emergency Room to became Spiderman, America’s Next Top Model featuring James Bond, William Hung and Bill Gates, LOST which became lost in somewhere far far away… It was interesting but kinda stupid…lolx

I had much fun on the last night where most of us slept damn late…

My roomates were fun too-Jonathan Kevinkumar, Ru En, Jerry, Jonathan, Wilson, Pang, and Jiun Kei. We ahd lotsa fun staying in the cabin tho…

As for now, me and Esther preparing for year-end Natonal Youth Camp in Sarawak. KLBC is doing games and talent time AGAIN! Argh, anyway, we’re still praying that God will gve us direction that we can follow as we head towards the camp.

I am having exams next week, do pray for me because I am not exactly prepared….

See ya…

Yeah, i am back from LTC, LEADERSHIP TRAINING COURSE FOR COUNCILLOR PREFECTS 2006 held at Pantai Indah Seaview Resort, Klang

It has been a great esposure and a good experience joining this wonderful camp. Getting to know each other closer it’s something cool… I do personally enjoy the camp althought it is a bit tiring!

Life is full of choices and I am proud to say that i have made a right choice not to attend the other Negeri Sembilan Leadership Camp although teacher did ask me to go! Thank God that I manage to make the right choice and at the right time. In life, i find that choices are important. The choices we make can not only affect us but our surrounding people. I always learn to think twice before making a desicion, as it is vital in my life as a young teenager. I do face challenges, and challenges surround me are temptations at times. temptations can be terrible, it can lure you into something and create a big fuss out of it. I have no explanation as to why life is like that and why tempatations occur or even why challenges arise. All I know is, to give my best shot in whatever I do and to always be the best. Argh, enough of lecturing my self and mem-bore-kan people with my philosophies.

Is life really short? Yes, it is.. No matter what, one can’t deny that life is short although most of the time, my 24hours are like a hundred years to me. But it is cool at times to know that I have so much time to complete my work. My assignments, projects are piling up. I have no idea on what to do and how to do because I have been dreaming in class for many months. I am in a world of my own, thinking of things of my own, feeling the moods of my own and enjoying life like nothing have ever happen?

Yes, exams is up next next week and I am not prepared. Exams to me is nothing nowadays. To the maximum, all i do is just to read a line or 2 before i enter the exams hall. And i do know, most of the time, failure is in my hands. Why? Because I did not prepare! Why do I know it and yet I am not doing it? It’s because i just don’t feel like it..

And i am proud to tell many of you that I am going for ROCK Camp 2006 this year. Isn’t it cool? But yes, I am not going all 4days and 3 nights. I will be going down to Broga on Monday evening and be with them till they return. Although, I may not be a key person there or I may not be incharging of anything, I am happy that I am able to go and enjoy myself (Again?) in this short time with the ROCkers and many other friends around.

LTC? I’ve learn many many things from this years’ LTC. It’s interesting to see how prefects behave outside of school and inside of school. It’s different. And you can see many characters of each other. And i find it really cool. This makes us united as a team. This years theme is ‘Breaking the barriers, I believe in you’. The theme song is I Believe In You by Celine Dion and IL DIVO. Overall, I had fun and i think i am going to miss those funny funny things we did in the camp.

Next up, I’ve watch POSEIDON… it’s kinda a good show but not real enough. Fake to some extent. But I just can’t resist myself but to tell you guys that I LIKE THE THEME SONG real much…

American Idol winner? Taylor Hicks? argh…. Nevermind, Katharine will do better that him in the future.

If you guys didn’t know, I had Prefect Gathering last Saturday.. We had 2 schools end up coming, which was SBU and CBN and i hereby would like to say that MGS and MBS did not turn up because of some lame reasons that no one in this world can accept their reasons….

Long blog huh?? More to come… Many things happen in my life in just a glimpse of an eye…