Yeah, i am back from LTC, LEADERSHIP TRAINING COURSE FOR COUNCILLOR PREFECTS 2006 held at Pantai Indah Seaview Resort, Klang

It has been a great esposure and a good experience joining this wonderful camp. Getting to know each other closer it’s something cool… I do personally enjoy the camp althought it is a bit tiring!

Life is full of choices and I am proud to say that i have made a right choice not to attend the other Negeri Sembilan Leadership Camp although teacher did ask me to go! Thank God that I manage to make the right choice and at the right time. In life, i find that choices are important. The choices we make can not only affect us but our surrounding people. I always learn to think twice before making a desicion, as it is vital in my life as a young teenager. I do face challenges, and challenges surround me are temptations at times. temptations can be terrible, it can lure you into something and create a big fuss out of it. I have no explanation as to why life is like that and why tempatations occur or even why challenges arise. All I know is, to give my best shot in whatever I do and to always be the best. Argh, enough of lecturing my self and mem-bore-kan people with my philosophies.

Is life really short? Yes, it is.. No matter what, one can’t deny that life is short although most of the time, my 24hours are like a hundred years to me. But it is cool at times to know that I have so much time to complete my work. My assignments, projects are piling up. I have no idea on what to do and how to do because I have been dreaming in class for many months. I am in a world of my own, thinking of things of my own, feeling the moods of my own and enjoying life like nothing have ever happen?

Yes, exams is up next next week and I am not prepared. Exams to me is nothing nowadays. To the maximum, all i do is just to read a line or 2 before i enter the exams hall. And i do know, most of the time, failure is in my hands. Why? Because I did not prepare! Why do I know it and yet I am not doing it? It’s because i just don’t feel like it..

And i am proud to tell many of you that I am going for ROCK Camp 2006 this year. Isn’t it cool? But yes, I am not going all 4days and 3 nights. I will be going down to Broga on Monday evening and be with them till they return. Although, I may not be a key person there or I may not be incharging of anything, I am happy that I am able to go and enjoy myself (Again?) in this short time with the ROCkers and many other friends around.

LTC? I’ve learn many many things from this years’ LTC. It’s interesting to see how prefects behave outside of school and inside of school. It’s different. And you can see many characters of each other. And i find it really cool. This makes us united as a team. This years theme is ‘Breaking the barriers, I believe in you’. The theme song is I Believe In You by Celine Dion and IL DIVO. Overall, I had fun and i think i am going to miss those funny funny things we did in the camp.

Next up, I’ve watch POSEIDON… it’s kinda a good show but not real enough. Fake to some extent. But I just can’t resist myself but to tell you guys that I LIKE THE THEME SONG real much…

American Idol winner? Taylor Hicks? argh…. Nevermind, Katharine will do better that him in the future.

If you guys didn’t know, I had Prefect Gathering last Saturday.. We had 2 schools end up coming, which was SBU and CBN and i hereby would like to say that MGS and MBS did not turn up because of some lame reasons that no one in this world can accept their reasons….

Long blog huh?? More to come… Many things happen in my life in just a glimpse of an eye…

Holidays is here, it may be like a dream come through to many people. But to me, it just sucks.

I have become stupider lately…
Since PMR, i have been lazying around, and when i start to miss class for drama for 3 weeks, it makes me lazier…

Exams is coming right after the holidays. I can’t imagine how i would fare this term. It’s shit! SPM is not as easy as I would have thought.. I hope to go into a international school. But my brain partially tells me that I shouldn’t because I would have to re-mingle, re-learn, which will make things even worse…

Life is beginning to be tough! I just don’t know what to do at times. I am feeling blur as ever…
This isn’t the kind of life I really want! I don’t see a bright future in myself…
Why? I really have know answer for that question! Only God holds the answer…
I have this really weird feeling… And i don’t know what to do! I am stuck!
I do have many choices, but never 1 seems right…
I am going for a camp tomorrow. I don’t know what is going to happen in this camp but I am sick of this! I am not feeling really good about it!

I am having headache now… I think i might be thinking too much! Am I?
I tried to be good… But at times, it’s not my choice!
I tried to be a perfectionist… But i can’t

Listening to the song Love Of My Life now, makes me worse!
Relationship matters, I am just gonna leave it aside, at the moment…
I am handling too many things…
Relationship with friends? Still allright I guess…

I really need someone to talk to… It’s tough… I won’t simply tell people my feelings, but I really need someone to talk to… Life is making me crazy… How long more is it going to be? I really have no answers for myself neither do I have answers for other people…
I am confused…
I need a break…
LIFE IS TOUGH…

Well, just came back from debate luncheon in school..

We had a debate lucheon as we were da KL Champs for Parliamentary Debates.
I was invited because I was a debator of ISKL 2006

We had a time of fun, chit-chat..here and there…

And we made known that…
-We will be the KL and NATIONAL Champs for debates;
-We will get medals from ISKL;
-We will try not to let VI get the overall champions;
-We will be KL and NATIONAL Champs for drama.
We have said we will study hard so that we can be involve in the above to make the school proud again…

We have also get the support from all our teachers and we have said we will bring the most talented team to, debates, drama and ISKL 2007.

Well, in just a glimpse of an eye- May 3rd, Drama Competition is over

Here is a summary on the recent-ended Drama Competition…

It is definitly something to be proud of. A team consist of 15 members went proudly to SMK Convent Bukit Nanas on May 3rd at 8am singing Onward St John’s. A team that went there with a hope of getting into the finals and to defend the title as KL Champions. Indeed, all schools saw us and were terrified. Just like what Ms Ellina said during our visit for the first 4 person to CBN, ‘All schools look as you as winners. It’s just 4 of you! What if 15? Many teachers said looking at the 4 students, they are going to be champions again’. Indeed, the whole of KL is looking highly on us for this annual competition.

The first school to perform was the hosting school, SMK Convent Bukit Nanas. CBN did a drama about a coffee shop. The drama was titled- ‘Coffee, Tea or Mee’. It was like a kopitiam story that revolves about this son who came back not recognising the family, but only recognise the family’s property. The story ended when the son realises that he was all wrong! It was a comedy like play but unfortunately, it went over the time limit of 20minutes. Being the hosting school, the timekeeper was them themself. Therefore, CBN was safe with a preformance of 21 minutes. Their voice projection was indeed terrible. I was sitting in the 5th row and I could barely hear a word utter by any of the actors.

We were the 11th school to perform. Because we were the 2nd last schools, many CBNers’ which were audience were like asking ‘Mana St.John’s?’, ‘Is St.John’s in the competition?’, ‘Did they pull out?’. With this responses, indeed, everyone is expecting a bang from us!

We went out when school no 9th perform to get ourself changed and be into the character. Before we enter, we had a one-minute silence and teacher came in and told us ‘With the dramas inside, you have hope. Only CBN and Wangsa Melawati were not bad, but you can be better. It is us that can only take the title away from them‘, teacher gave us extra confidence as we are about to enter.

It was later our turn, when they announced, School No 11- Wish You Were Here…., which was our drama title. We set up the stage professionaly and we amazed the CBN prefects behind, for sure! They were like, ‘Oh it’s St.John’s’. It was like a once- in-a-lifetime thingy that they MUST SEE. The fact was, the stage was full with prefects and we didnt even have the space to put our props. There were about 15prefects there. And i have no idea, what they were doing.

The curtain opens…. Our story is this…
This drama revolves around a young boy, Rahim, who is neglected by his busy father Osman. Rahim tries to cope with his loneliness by talking to his ‘uncle’. As time goes by, Rahim feels that his life gets from bad to worse. Ironically, it is made even worse when his father asks a favour of him. The favour was to deliver a package to a drug dealer. Rahim was so stressed by the pressure and lack of love that he even got into trouble in school with teachers for not completing his homework. Eventually, Rahim realizes that he has been a bad boy and wants to change his path to lead a better life. So, he decides not to deliver the package. For that, his father gets caught and is held hostage at a warehouse by the drug dealer. When the father and son was trying to run away, the henchman shoot on the dad’s leg. But because of the father’s love and conscience, he just save his son. Rahim was so terrified and all he tought was just to give a call to the ‘uncle’. But when he calls that ‘uncle’, the father’s handphone ring. It shocked himself and he couldn’t believe for himself that all the ‘uncle’ was an imagination. It is a drama that portrays what the lack of a father’s love could do to his son.

It was a thought-provoking drama and to encourage thinking skills. CBN and SBS girls were shedding tears at the ending of our play. I was amazed how we manage to bring it to such a ‘high’ momentum. We got a standing ovation from the audience but some of the CBN girls were like ‘Apa ni?’, ‘What ayah? What uncle? tak faham lah’. They were indeed thinking. SO, we achieve what we wanted-thought provoking!

As I was walking our from the hall, SBS girls that walk pass me, commented ‘Sekolah you terel drama, huh?’ I was like ‘Owh, thank you!’. I was indeed happy for all that happen on stage. Nothing screwed up!

The school after us, we did a comedy on LOST fall flat as we ended the momentum to high. Well, our fault!

The jufges went to the meeting session to decide the finalist for about 2hours. Imagine, it’s 2hours, 120minutes….
All schools were saying… it’s either’Wangsa Melawati and St.John’s or ‘CBN and St.John’s’. But St.John’s name was well assured to be in the finals. I expected Wangsa Melawati to be in the finals with us as they were to our standard.

To my amazement, they announced ‘Wangsa Melawati and SMK Convent Bukit Nanas’ as the finalist. I was SHOCKED! What? Anything wrong? Anyone changed the results? All schools were boo-ing CBN as the finalists. Teachers of Datuk Lokman and students of SBS especially, send us their condolences. They acknowledge we were good! CBN audiences also came and acknowledge us. It was clear we were the sole winner in the eyes of the audience. But, I guess it was just pure luck.

Well, to cut the long story short, Wangsa Melawati got champions this year, Victoria Institution got 2nd while CBN got 3rd. Most of the finalist were rubbish, especially Air Panas, Convent Sentul and Methodist Girls School. We would have at least got 2nd if we were there.

I supported Victoria Institution for the finals. But I guess they were good but i was kinda a bit disspaointed. I expected more from them. But they were good! It’s the first few times, i support VI perhaps…

Pn Elizabeth and many of our teachers said, ‘It’s okay, we will definitly do a big come-back next year. I assure you of this. We will go to the furthest…’

Teacher said, indeed, our zone is a tough zone and we can’t do anything

For this, this recently-concluded Inter-School English Language Drama Competition wasn’t a big achievement at all because they weren’t good. Not exactly all, weren’t good, but MOST OF IT!

Nothing is fair in this world… This really gets me frustrated and pissed off! I definitly wanna see a come-back for St.John’s next year. There goes our 2nights stay in Selangor and Malacca…

And by the way, the best actress from CBN did acknowledge Kevin as a better actor…
Well, it’s pure luck….

I really thank God for this oppurtunity to serve the school and the drama team as the Manager and also, sort off Director for this year’s drama. Although we did not win, we did not lose neither…

My drama team: YOU ARE ALWAYS THE BEST! FIDE ET LABORE WILL REMAIN OUR GUIDE AND WE ARE WINNERS OURSELF AND WINNERS IN THE EYES OF THE AUDIENCE! CONGRATS ON A JOB WELL DONE!!

Picture speaks a thousand words….

indeed, it is very true…… it speaks and means a lot to me….

i am just feeling bored, pissed and preesured…

i am in a dilemma now…..i don’t want to be a prefect but people around me wants me to be a prefect… I don’t feel good being a prefect… being a perfect person..I am just bored… Why can’t someone understand me? Why? Things have not been going well since this year…. i just don’t know why… I am not asking for sympathy but I just wanna express my feeling and i don’t want to keep it anymore. It is so difficult… I feel so bad, really bad…..

Should I or SHould I Not? I really don’t know…Someone please just tell me something….!

I am back… Being busy…Longer blog next round…

I know this is lame but no other ways…

Is this what life is all about….

It’s so confusing at times, at this age and time, I have a lot of unanswered question in my mind…
I just have no idea what is happening to me at times..
Things can be really good at times and things can be really really bad….

What earth is this? I am always praying that things will go smoothly in my life and my dreams and wishes can come through!

I have been busy with drama the past few weeks and, I just need a break soon… It’s really tiring handling a bunch of team that is playful at times or shall i say most of the time…

Anyway, i know God has His best for us and the team….

So, will keep updating here… Keep visiting….

What a day i had today. I am extremely exhausted after a day of workshop and rehearsal for Worship. It’s preety tiring. I was back at 7.

I am looking at things positively and everything has been good at the moment. I know what I am doing and I am starting to enjoy it. I am getting the hang of being a Form 4 student. As usual, trying is the best solution for me at the moment! I don’t see a bright future for me in science stream but I went to science stream because of some personal reasons. Yes, science is tough but I am hoping to be able to get the hang of it as soon as possible.

I hope to be able to do a longer blog in the future and blog more often to keep this site as active as possible.

As for drama, I am really busy with it. Practices is almost everyday and my time table is so hectic. I have to write letters and plan script and practices so on and so forth. I am hoping for the best for this years’ competition. We hope to be able to enter finals, go Selangor and Malacca, if it’s God’s will for us. Obviously, with mens strength, nothing is possible…… But with HIM, everything will turn out well. I am praying really hard for it.

Will be back with another blog asap… Tata..

See yaz/.. Love ya!

How exams mark really reflects on my life and my responsibility?

If you compare my first term exam marks and my form 3 marks, my results has decline from bad to worse.

It really reflects my image as everybody thinks *and i repeat, THINKS* of me as a good student! Everyone will be saying like
*alvin got 6A’s in PMR, 4A’s in UPSR and he always studies, he speaks good English*
Haha, this is not true, LOOKS IS DECEIVING!

Honestly, I do study but not too the extreme, I get A’s in major examination because I prayed hard! These are facts, no one could ever change these facts!

But guess what, this life start to mean something to me. Things is starting to go just like what i planned! And sometimes, to my suprise, the thing or event appears to be better than what I’ve thought! And these things are significant in my life and it’s awesome to know such things is happening in my life. It is really cool.

As for the fact that I did not do well this first term exams, I am telling myself to work really hard to achieve better in the coming exams in June. At least to the minimum, each subject I should get at least a 3B or B3. Not anything worse than that! I failed miserably in Add. Maths and Biology this term. I’ll make sure, no fails next term! I did not get 1A for English, it’s just an 2A, which I am not satisfied. I’ve always been getting the highest grade for English and this term…… *speechless*

Anyway, nowadays, I’ve been bust and really busy with drama competition. I hope I can find time to blog!

See ya guys…
Love ya..
my_alvin