Monthly Archives: March 2006

This life is starting to mean something

How exams mark really reflects on my life and my responsibility?

If you compare my first term exam marks and my form 3 marks, my results has decline from bad to worse.

It really reflects my image as everybody thinks *and i repeat, THINKS* of me as a good student! Everyone will be saying like
*alvin got 6A’s in PMR, 4A’s in UPSR and he always studies, he speaks good English*
Haha, this is not true, LOOKS IS DECEIVING!

Honestly, I do study but not too the extreme, I get A’s in major examination because I prayed hard! These are facts, no one could ever change these facts!

But guess what, this life start to mean something to me. Things is starting to go just like what i planned! And sometimes, to my suprise, the thing or event appears to be better than what I’ve thought! And these things are significant in my life and it’s awesome to know such things is happening in my life. It is really cool.

As for the fact that I did not do well this first term exams, I am telling myself to work really hard to achieve better in the coming exams in June. At least to the minimum, each subject I should get at least a 3B or B3. Not anything worse than that! I failed miserably in Add. Maths and Biology this term. I’ll make sure, no fails next term! I did not get 1A for English, it’s just an 2A, which I am not satisfied. I’ve always been getting the highest grade for English and this term…… *speechless*

Anyway, nowadays, I’ve been bust and really busy with drama competition. I hope I can find time to blog!

See ya guys…
Love ya..

It’s finally over…

Exams is over, you can imagine how happy and glad i am right?

Life has been just ‘okay’ for me… the usual okay… not too great, not too toughh…
I am just speechless on what i want to say… Seriously, what should I blog?
Blog even when I have nothing to say? How stupid..??

Blog more…

long awaited holiday

Owh gosh….holiday finally arrived, but i am not in the holiday mood…
I am in the exam mood…going for tuition and stuff like that…

Well this is the life of a student, darn boring!

Claire; good luck in theory
SPM students; good luck in results..
I just know the Esther is one of the top scorer of the country
STPM students; good luck as well!!

ALL THE BEST PEOPLE! God’s with ya… Take Care…

How to make ‘her smile’

What I was talking about just the other day was perfectionist!
And here is it, i got a bulletin board in friendster on how to make a girl smile or how to be a perfect man….
Read this plus my comments!

How to make ‘her’ smile!

1. Tell her she is beautiful
* is hard to express at times
2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if its just for a second.
*how can anyone hold hers for just a second??
3. Hug her from behind.
*this is not so bad
4. Leave her voice or txt messages to wake up.
*this can be done
5. Wrestle with her :)
*this can also be done
6. don’t go hang out with you ex when shes notwith you, you might not relize how badly it hurts her.
*everyone knows this
7. If youre talking to another girl, when you’re done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her….let her know she’s yours and they aren’t.
*this is true
8.Write her notes or call her just to say “hi”
*i do that frequently
9.Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.
*obviously lol
10. Play with her hair.
*some girls don’t like it
11. Pick her up.
*obviously la..
12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn’t like it
*yeah but to certain extent, it might be over-sensitive
13. Make her laugh.
*biasa lah tu
14. Let her fall asleep in your arms
*can be done
15. If she’s mad at you, kiss her
*this is a real challenge
16. If you care about her, then TELL HER
*of course la
17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal (she’ll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelery (she’ll treasure it forever),and one of his t-shirts (she’ll most likely wear it to bed)or sweatshirts sprayed with his cologne!!and flowers or something occasionally.
*can also be done…
18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you’re alone.
*of course…i’m no hypocrite
19. Look her in the eyes and smile
*normal lah tu..
20. Hang out with her on weekends.
*wads extraordinary bout this?
21.Kiss her in the rain (girls love this)
*huh, if it really rains..
22.Kiss her just for the heck of it.
23. If your listening to music, let her listen too.
*of course…
24. Remember her birthday and get her something,even if its simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means the WORLD to her.
*everyone knows this…
25. when she gives you a present on your birthday, Christmas, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don’t (it’ll make her happy.)
*kinda hypocrites but used to it
26. Always call her when you say you will,it may not seem like it, but it does hurt her and makes her think you don’t care so call even if you can only talk for a minute. Girls don’t necessarily have to have hour long conversations every night but its nice for them to hear your voice even for a quick hello.
*of course heh..
27. Give her wat she wants
*if it’s not too much, sure..
28. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.
29.dont hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she’ll feel left out.
*neva will I do it
30.hang out with her whenever you are free.
*of course…
31.If u care about her…SHOW her!
*many times…

Isn’t it really cool?? I find some things can be done and some things just cant!

Hot to rush off, doing drama script…..
Lov ya guys!


I’ve just learned something new in this life long jouney of mine: Giving Our Best doesnt mean Getting The Best!!!
I mean this is a truth!!! I might have really work hard but working hard doesnt guranttee i’ll get what i want, what i dream and what i wish!!!!
Isn’t it kinda foolish? Doing something that the result is not assured!! I guess this is life!!
I just sometimes feel bored with the situation and things i am facing!!!
I am seriously foolish, faithless and speechless!!
I don’t know what I need to do, and what I have to do!!
If anyone ever read the poem if, i just think i’ll never be able to achieve the standard!!
Not achieving the standard, does that mean I am not a perfect man??
Yeah, admitting I am not a perfect man because no one is perfect..
Isn’t this real life that I am facing??
I am just getting really mad at things sometimes….
Things just doesnt go my way and the way I always wanted it to be!!

‘This life is just miserable…I am gonna live this life aimlessly’my_alvin


It’s been amazing how I lived my life in the first few months of this year!!!
Life is indeed a journey full with obstacles….
I’ve been living my life Against All Odds and Giving my Best in whatever I do is what I’ve been doing so far!!
I guess this really works for me!

Back to Exams, it sucks…..!
It has been really tough going through this period of examinations!
I am serious, You should really try the paper of my school!!
It’s kinda double the standard of what other schools are doing!!!
I have a huge feeling, i will fail in certain subjects, but really hope NOT!!

Tension is in the Air!!!
I just need someone to clear this tension that I am feeling……
I just feel miserable!!!!

Thats all for it now, gotta go!

Love ya guys!




Is it really true if i said everyone has to face exams??
Exams sucks!!!!
Why? Why Why!!!

Today i was sitting for English and BM paper and seriously it sucks….
And i expect my marks to suck too!!

SPM is really terrible it annoys not just me but everyone!!!

Tension is in the air!!

I am also trying to write a script for Drama Competition!
I am going by faith, walking by sight…….
I have an idea but someimtes, its difficult to express it in words!!!!!

By the way, have u guys ever see live blood transfusion? Our propsmen is working on it!!! It will lokk really cool ler… Seing real transfusion form a packet to another….

Anyway…… got to go…Sejarah and Maths calling….See yaz tata

How I Wish…

Tomorrow Tomorrow and Tomorrow

These are the words thats always playing in my mind…..
When will it be Saturday or even Sunday?

How I Wish…

*I can score and 1A without studying
*someone to finish my homework for me
*someone who can teach me patiently without nagging, scolding and forcing
*someone who cares for me
*someone to share my joy, happiness, grief and pain
*i could take a break from school
*i could be back at Aussie
*i can go for a holiday
*i can be All By Myself
*i can have an ATM Machine where i can get money everyday
*i can use my handphone without paying bills
*i can don’t sit for SPM
*teachers are more loving
*classmates are more caring
*parents are more understanding
*i can have more freedom
*i am born more creative
*my Internet connection is faster that the ordinary speed
*school don’t exist in this world
*i have good memory
*i can overcome my shortcomings
*i can predict the future
*i can be a Better Man!
*i can take whatever i like from the shopping mall without paying

Plenty of wishes but everything looks impossible!
But with GOD all things are possible!!
All i need is someone to open my eyes, open my ears to see what is laid out for me and to get the Big Picture in this life of mine!

School is ordinary!!! Bored Bored Bored!!!
Really wish we don’t just sit and learn but to go for excursion do projects and to explore new things!
Look, it’s a wish again!!

Anyway, gotta go!

See ya guys!



What i need is mutual understanding!!
Life has not been as easy as many of you might as thought!!

People is having high expections on me, and high expectations is equals to preesure and preesure bring stress!

In this life where everyone does their own things and no one cares for one another is terribly annoying and irritating!
Exams is coming up but i just dont feel like studying! My mood is going high up and low down!
My brains have been telling me to study, alvin, study but my heart is yet so far away!! So, everytime my heart wins the brain!!
I use to have the cooperation between my heart and my brain *mutual understanding* during my FORM 3 period for PMR but this understanding is missing this time round! I know and expect i am gonna have a hard time this exams but I just can’t do somethng I don’t wish to do!
Yes, it is a students’ responsibility to study but I just can’t take it!!
I am taking time slowly to coop with what i am cooping!


Please do understand that Form 4 is an all together different thing!! I need time, in fact, everyone needs time to get into it! I just can’t be taking a cold bath and suddenly putting my self into a hot bath…… (Heh, what philosophy this is) Anyway, my point here is understanding!
No one really understands what I am going through now. No one but of course, GOD Does!
*I dont feel good writing this but these are all my thoughts and feelings and the things i’m currently going through!

My homework load is getting more! I just can’t finish at times! I can’t be doing my homework as in i don not have other things to attend too?!?!? I have ministry, is another part of things that i have to handle and coop on! Not to mention, drama and prefects!! It’s seriously tiring and sometimes, i just feel like giving up!

I just can’t wait for the school holidays where I can just do what I feel like doing! It’s the best moments in my life as a student! Although, staying at home is boring, it is still better than school! School, in my opinion is never good! UNLESS i get to study what I like, just like Aussie!
Our education system is too exam-oriented, which is giving preesure!
I guess playing computer will hopefully, kill my boredom! I’m still thinking if I should change the layout of this page!

Here is one challenge:

Can the govenment change my mindset towards education?”

Anyway, dinner’s waiting…. Got to go!! See ya guyz!!

*P/S: I seriously know how it feels as a student. Could someone please understand me??
I don’t know what I am writing, but i am writing what is bothering me in my spirit and my soul!