But I have come to a realisation that Life is Short.
You may be here today, and yet, away, tomorrow.
I don’t know what this life would bring for me.
But I am learning to appreciate the things and the people around me as long as I am breathing.
It makes me smile to know that some would still see me in heaven, and some might not.
But whatever it brings, I will still find joy in this life.
The joy that none can fathom.
The love none can taste.
with my Lord.
I smile to know that God has been my comfort all these while when I am in need, in pain and in trouble.
He has never fail me.
To know that the Lord has His best installed for me and my family gives hope.
A hope that only you – need to experience it yourselves.
Disasters happens, Deaths occurs – at the start of 2010.
May not seem a bright year for some.
But I know it’s not bleak future.
I know He is in control in all these circumstances,
And I pray that through all these, more would come to know the Lord.
It is saddening to people wounded, people die, this and that.
But I know all these is happening for His glory.
2010 is a year of hope.
that through all that is happening, there is still hope for the lost.
And for those who seek Him and Him alone will find this hope.
An everlasting Hope.
On the other hand, if there is still people reading my dying blog, do drop a message.
Cause I still do come here and check things out.
Life has not been treating me really well, but I am overcoming it.
cuz’ I want to be an overcomer!
i miss quite a number of people in my life now.
tell me i am emo. i am.
it’s prolly the first time i am feeling like this in this year.
when i start thinking too much in the morning.
this is what happens – disappointments endlessly.
its prolly one of those days when it will swiped thru all my emotions and i am fine the next day.
i wish. i hope.
so many things running through my mind.
but sometimes, no one is just there to hear me out and to understand me.
and it boils down to me trying to take it all in personally.
i wished i could just crap things with people and talk crap and blend in.
i realise i can no longer do that.
it’s ironic how some people thinks they can.
i don’t know what crap i am talking.
but this is sure one of those emo stupid days i am going through.
let’s hope tomorrow will be a better day?
or else, i’ll sleep through the day without going to classes.
it was tough and it still is to let go of people dearest to you.
and probably even tougher when you’ve never met the person for months.
and i really mean months.
although promises made were empty, you made the last few days great.
for me. at least.
i felt the pinch only the night before you left.
it was a tough challenging night.
and i wished i could even think – it’s okay.
no. i couldn’t.
it took a while for me to sink in.
or prolly, way more than ‘a while’
and hearing you on the phone tearing makes me tear too.
my heart was so torn that night on the phone.
to know you are leaving the next morning.
but i was so happy to hear you on the phone, honestly.
i wished i was permitted to cry out loud.
even right now, writing this – i am holding tears.
because i just miss having you around me, around my lil phone.
which smses beeps all the time. from you.
your last words of ‘i’ll miss you’ hits me even more that night.
i wished i could utter the same phrase, but physical surroundings did not permit me to do so.
but yeah, ‘i’ll miss you too’.
i am feeling much better now. at least it’s sinking in.
altho i still think about you.
much better doesn’t equals to better.
and counting 8hours behind my time is just annoying at times.
i think by the 3 months you are back, i can count it upside down for you ‘plus-minus’ eight.
i guess i am no kidding. =)
but the moment i woke up this morning, checked my phone and saw that weird number miss call at 4am, i knew it was you. although wasn’t hundred percent sure.
till your facebook message says.
at least i know where to find you now.
still waiting for your call on skype or something though.
but i am truly thankful for your facebook message and wall posts which really brightens up my day.
never don’t reply. or you will so get it from me when you return. heh.
i know you’re enjoying snow there and somehow i pray and hope that this distance(and absence) will binds us closer and brings us together. quoting ‘you’ =)
yeah. i am gonna work hard to finish off my assignments and wait for your return while enjoying my 2 months break. and by then, i wish to spend time. and prolly i hope it won’t be a disappointing one. i guess it won’t be.
because you have to be back to collect your christmas/hk gift from me.
that another of your promise!!
=) just so you know, i think many people are missing you as well.
and i can say that i am the first few.
without a doubt.
3 months and counting.. to.. March 25th..
UK isn’t that far after all, right? =P
*please tell me it isn’t so that i can go over soon too*
-why is the people i love and care for leaves me one by one? i wonder. sigh-