I understand the hard time you are going through. I am going through it either. It has been a long journey. I know how painful you are feeling isn’t but life has always been this way- full of obstacles. Somehow, I do wonder why this happens but I just can’t give any explanations at the moment. God knows the bigger picture. And yeah, I hope the picture will soon be revealed. I am speechless now. But always remember:
God is too wise to be mistaken,
Too good to be unkind,
When you don’t understand,
When you don’t see His plans,
When you can’t trace His hands,
TRUST HIS HEART!