FORM 5: Everything changes

Sorry for not being able to blog nowadays.Am busy, busy with so many stuffs, one after another.
At some point, i really feel it is time for me to give up.
But i guess the joy of the LORD became my strength.
It’s just not the usual me the past 2 months, i guess.
I was a whole new different person.
If you are asking the question of WHY? I don’t know.
People around me will often feel it.
Trust me! They do! And i am thankful that they do care..
People like them are hard to find.
Thanks to you people out there, i am still kicking, alive and well.

Christmas was kinda fun, although I was being a lil moody.
After much waiting and praying and people’s anticipation hurrying me year by year, i finally got baptised.
You know who you are, thanks for all your gifts. love em’ and appreciate it.
For this year, gifts from me are unique because i really took time to shop with Mr Lee, i mean Ah Kit.
Had my Christmas Eve with ROCKers and gang at Talipon Restaurant near Safari.
Went for a midnight or early morning bowling at Endah Parade and then went home.
I know it is nothing unique but at least i had something on..

New Year, another whole new story.
Another chapter of life, new hopes, new dreams.
Another chapter of life in the sense that I am finally 17.
Being 17 isn’t fun, isn’t simple, isn’t easy.
Coming to 17 years old, the only phrase that pops up is ‘SPM IS COMING’.
Not like i want the phrase to comes out, but it just does automatically pop up.
Annoying at times, isn’t it?
Had New Year Eve at Choon Kit’s house, yeah, Jono’s house too- had steamboat and lepak-ed till the night is over…

Now, time to be serious, no more anything attitude.
It’s all back to business! SPM is coming near day by day and it is scaryyyy..
To be honest, I am scared.
Whatever you wanna say, the fear is there.
I have never felt this kinda fear. It is different.
It is the exam that is going to determine my whole future.
It’s in HIs hands no matter what.
Doing my very best.
I know i am late in preparation but will tryyy..

I am in 5O again…
Right directly up from 4O.
KInda dont like the class now!
Things are different, never gonna be the same i guess.
The fun, the joy, the crap, the nonsense we had together is now memories.
Everyone is having the same fear, the same tension.
Having fun in the class is like a big sin already.
We don’t smile and laugh like we used to.
Everyone is serious, really serious in their work.
I guess i might be the only one fooling around here..
But I hope to update my site more.

Blessed Christmas and a Happy New Year!
God’s richest blessings be upon you!

Alvin

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